It has been 364 days since I woke and decided that enough was enough. I wasn’t living the life I wanted to live. I had let my weight get out of control and I had been dealing with the effects of being obese for a while and knew something had to change. Tomorrow wasn’t good enough I had to start that day! In the 364 days that have past I have lost 100 pounds (give or take depending on how delicious dinner was the night before!) and gained more than I could have ever imagined.
I am excited and nervous to share my story with you over the next couple weeks and mortified to show some photos (slim pickin’s! Pun intended). I am by no means an expert and what has worked for me may not work for you but if one person reads this and feels like it is possible and they can make the change to a healthier lifestyle it is worth sharing a few photos that make me uncomfortable. I want to share with you my motivation, lessons I learned along the way and ultimately how I was able to do it and my plan for the future. This is a life-long journey, I don’t get to quit and go back to old habits because I have gotten to where I wanted to be. Now I find out what I am really made of!
Let’s start at the beginning, I was a 31-year-old mother of two and by any doctor’s calculation I was obese. I was never really concerned with the number on the scale though, the bigger problem for me was how I felt. Everyday I woke up not happy with how I looked or how I felt. I didn’t like what I saw in the mirror. I would nearly have a panic attack if someone wanted me to be in a picture. I have so few photos of my children and I together because I refused to have my picture taken. I dreaded buying new clothes because it was never about how much I liked something or how confident it made me feel it was always about finding something that fit that wasn’t hideous or horribly uncomfortable.
I won’t lie, a lot of my problem with my weight was pure vanity. I didn’t want people to see me this overweight but more than how I looked it was the way that I felt that was the biggest motivator in my decision to make a change. I wasn’t able to play with my kids the way that I wanted to and they deserved. I couldn’t make it up a set of stairs without being winded. In my twenties, I like most people felt invincible, I never worried about how my weight would affect my health in the long run. Now I have kids to think about and it is my responsibility to make sure that I do everything in my power to be around for them for as long as I can.
I knew a change had to be made but it seemed impossible. I have two kids, I am gone from home 12 hours each day for work and there just seemed to be no way that I could make the changes that I needed to make to live the healthy life I wanted so I just never tried. Then came August 15, 2014 and everything changed. I had had enough and things were going to change that day.
I am now 364 days in and gearing up for day 365. To celebrate I am running the Dirty Girl Mud Run in Milwaukee, WI! I heard about this race from a girlfriend of mine and as soon as I found out the race was August 15th exactly one year from the day that changed my life I knew I had to do it. This will be my chance to really prove to myself how far I have come in just one year.
Wish me luck tomorrow! Bring on the mud and bring on the obstacles! I am ready to show that course who’s boss!
Is weight something that you struggle with? Do you feel like it’s impossible to find the time to live a healthy lifestyle or have you found that balance? I would love to start a conversation about this. Let me know in the comments below or find me over on Facebook or Twitter.
Until next time!